I am sorry my dear

To My Friend,

I know you need me. You have been working hard, wanted to share the good and bad experiences to get a boost. I am working on myself and had similar mixture of good and bad experiences; some of our friends had even worse but we all are smiling and keeping up with the life. In this phase of life when we are making ourselves or our younger loved ones' future stable, we forget to take some time off.

On weekends; I turn myself off from everything I have experienced in the week. I rebuild myself. I clean away my mind and heart from everything that was bothering me. I sleep like a baby. I read books and set myself happy in the world of my dreams. Ignorance is bliss. At the end of day I am living with myself , I must take care of myself first. If I can't keep myself happy how would I spread light to others. As of now, I am slow at rebuilding myself ; I need more time. Steadily I will be better at it, I will be quicker at letting go gracefully.

I want to share this thing with you.

We are like saplings as of now, if someone is hungry and comes to you, you can give them all your leaves and you will die. Help wisely. I don't believe in the thought of sacrificing without purpose. I will grow into a big tree full of flowers and fruits before I let others reap benefits of me. You might have heard of the quote "You give someone fish and you feed them for a day; you teach them how to fish and you give them an occupation to feed them for a lifetime." I cannot die for making someone happy for a moment.

I will help others with seeds so that they can grow more trees for others as well. Till then I need to take good care of myself. I can direct the seekers to other solutions for sure. I have many little saplings around me which need to be protected and grown to serve the other earthlings. I want you to do same or better but nothing less. Besides taking care of myself I have started practicing of helping other wisely.

Sometimes I have nothing to offer but letting them know that 'it will change', lending an ear and making them see the good around them helps; telling them about 'people who went through worse and won' helps.

Kindness is a virtue a few possess.I am glad I have it in my heart and I am blessed to have friends with kindest hearts who forgive me for my mistakes. We are soul friends, Souls never get hurt but heal us every time.Souls feed on love and generate love. Human body is strange, full with thoughts and emotions. Souls are completely different, they just know the language of love and care. I know you wanted me to give you a smile but I vented out myself to you . Thank you for being stronger and forgiving me for my mistake.

See how strong you are. You came to lighten your heart and brightened me with the contentment of having you by my side. Indeed the divine comes to us in form of each other. We fight to break away the wrong in each other and laugh the next moment to celebrate the love in our world.

I am sorry for the times I was not there for you.

I make a promise to make you smile with all the love I have for you.

Thank you for being in my world.

-Ashman

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